As I sit in the dark listening to some Banky W - Made For You reflecting on how my day was half hungry, tired and excited I cannot help but have a Cold Decency. Earlier,an Uber driver *man* in his late fifties or rather came off that way was kind enough to give me a heads up that the world will end in 2022. I knew what I had done wrong. If you meet me for the very first time I am very welcoming with my beautiful smile and warm hi. I come off inviting although in actual sense am not. There is a difference between being polite and overly entertaining.I come off flirtatious and very interested. Real quick ask me your name and I will laugh because am busy being your co-driver, day dreaming and analyzing you in my mind.
I have heard of devils but today I rode with one. The little church girl in me was ready to put her Sunday school skills to the test. What got my attention is when he said that with so much corruption and theft they wont have time to even enjoy the money. Immediately I started day dreaming. What do you mean like I haven't had a chance for a decent first date, kiss and long drive home. I haven't met the one for me yet. We haven't had that it moment yet, argued to a point of breaking up to making up. Crap, I haven't met his annoying friends and he my disapproving bestfriend. He hasn't even asked me to be his girlfriend. We haven't even re watched deadpool *fuck*.
In the midst of even a silly moment that is when you realize what is really important. It is what it is because you know what you cannot force someone or anyone to see you in the way you see yourself. The big question is who is this someone? So darling today you did cross my mind rather you are the motivation behind my hard work. Its easier assuming you are miles away, in a different country to stay sane and am sure am not the only one who thinks this way.
Today love hit home and it left a cold decency. You are not a bad person but sometimes you come off cold. You want to be normal and have average dreams or expectations but you can't because you know whatever you want is out there thus forced to be decent.
