I am uptight but this October is giving me butterflies. For the last couple of months I have been working on my energy. I am glad it's paying off. I will never tire of crowing myself as the ultimate Aquarius lady because am a puzzle even to myself. I have multiple conversations in my head every five minutes so believe me when I say oh I know . Everything you are about to say I pretty much covered in high school so you have years to catch up with me.
Recently, I bumped into my childhood crush. One of them anyway like I just didn't want to rub it to his face there were others *laughing sheepishly*. I watched girls fight over him as I was a serious tomboy so I was one of the boys if not invisible. We were a circle of three Myself, him and my other crush. In my head they would fight for me . He is as appealing as he will ever be but that's just it. He took me by surprise when he asked for my number just how I like it. Was I about to upgrade my childhood crush from a dude to a man or was I thirstloading? I wish he was not charming but he is *damn it* my ego is doing the happy dance.
Sometimes we are so busy working towards being successful and there is nothing wrong with that but we forget the little things that makes us unique #BringingBackTheGoodOldLove . When was the last time you giggled?
I am mature now, am ready for that love. How many people can honestly and openly admit to this? Are we so broken that we have learnt to push everyone away? So desperate that we are afraid to ask for what we truly want? Or just wasting precious time dismissing ourselves by blaming it on I have nothing to offer?
This October there are people who need to slow down and others who need to keep up with their dreams by following their hearts. We all need to give ourselves permission to not only give but be willing to receive the kindness and love back. Ofcourse you are independent no one is questioning your masculinity or femininity but two heads are better than one. Having written this and expectant of the butterflies that come with positive energy for now let this not only be my #RealityCheck but yours as well.
From my soul to yours, pleasant surprises checkmates.
