Dreams

Hold on to your dreams because they are  the one thing no one can rob you off. But the worst thing that could happen would be watching someone else live your dream. Like don't just dream but start living if not acting out your dream. 

When you dream you have nothing to loose. It could either come true or not. Don't fantasize then dream and act all *its    God given* it's a confirmation from heaven. No let's be realistic. Don't obsess with your dream either. Just like love it will unfold naturally. 

The more you want it, the worse reality gets. The more you want to be inlove the more lonely you become. When you least expect it love happens. Well is strikes. Well so do dreams. When you are just about "done" it comes true. 

Don't just hold on to your dreams with a big spoon or shovel waiting to hide what you think might be "stolen", live your life full of expectancy. It might not be today or yesterday or tomorrow but it could be the day after you finally calm down. 

And that is my #RealityCheck 

My 11:50am

It's a shame that we are always looking for inspiration everywhere else but never in the people who stayed when everyone else left. We always complain of how things are not looking up while we are the ones looking down on the blessings in our lives. How can you ask for more when you barely notice the plenty already surrounding you. 

Life rather real life events have opened my eyes. The baggages we already have and the ones we always want to drag along to new places are part of the reason why more is never enough. 

If you want that good man ladies you have got to stop dragging your bad experiences with bad men in the already positive atmosphere. Gentlemen if you want that one of a kind lady you have got to change your mindset and game plan. New strategy. If she is worth it she will be worth the struggle. Don't settle for the already readily available lady who appeared just when you hit the jack pot. 

Easy come easy go. You invest so much in getting ahead only to realize that what you should have been doing was appreciate and give a little more attention to what life has presented you. There is what you go for and what life has presented you. Whatever you decide know that time will not sit still on the other side waiting for you. 

And that is my #RealityCheck 

From my heart to yours

Am going to need something strong to keep me well blacked out. I can't sleep. I am battling with my heart. My head and heart are in agreement that I am missing you. I would rather read old magazines or count sheep than admit to your face. 

Life goes on. Love is not a walk in a rose garden with petals and beautiful lighting. Love is not about having the right gown on or even any make up on. Love is expressing how you feel. Using words to creatively reward the mind and heart. 

Am sorry but please allow me to miss you just for tonight. 

To the wondering hearts out there this is from mind to yours #RealityCheck 

Preparations

Let me start by saying that I am proud of myself. If yesterday was a test honestly speaking on a personal level I failed miserably but on a challenge one, I out dis myself. I brought down those self made walls termed as shy. 

I used to be a social happy human being now am only happy sometimes and as for making new friends well you could say that ship drowned along with the titanic. I only go for the casual hi and bye and major in going silent on the party that I least approve of. I could come off as arrogant but in real sense am distancing myself to listen to my inner voice. Should I trust you? Can I trust you? That is why I always leave room for serendipity. You have my attention so go ahead and do you. 

I knew August had some hidden fun in it but if I was going to enjoy it I would have to go out of my comfort zone. Who wants to do that? Definitely not me. Yes I always convince myself there is plenty of time to have fun after having invested and accomplished. Then it hit me. I had four months to a new year. My life is on the right track but I can do more. 

In preparation of the good times ahead, I am planning on bringing down more self made barrier. I feel guilty for enjoying myself. For people who are used to routines trying to squeeze in change can lead to misunderstandings. 

I am glad I took a step of faith. I also learnt that when you sarcrifice, it pays off. Did it pay off, you will have to wait and see .

And that is my #RealityCheck 

Misunderstanding

Don't let misunderstandings cloud your judgement. What you interpret sometimes gets in the way of your happiness. In the heat of a moment you find youself throwing away beautiful memories only to regret later on. 

I don't want to be that kind of a lady. I am human and will blow things out of proportion but I will try my level best not to allow what I see or hear block out what and who you already are to me and mylife. 

I am not saying we will kiss and make up acting as though we are video vixens of "us against the world" . This is real life so there is no rehasal just light, camera and action. We will argue but I will take time to reflect if I was quick to overreact or you have been stringing me along on your journey of "whatever happens happens" 

And that is my #RealityCheck  

My 11 o'clock Reality

So am minding my own business trying to make ends meet by doing what I do best and no not smiling my way to the top the easy way but am comfortable with the game plan life has presented me. 

Then this somehow shy gentleman walks right up to me. We exchange our halos and what not trying to keep the conversation interesting if not going then he finally decides to ask if am married. As usual I laugh thinking to myself just my lack just when am alone doesn't mean am supposed to look, act and carry myself as though am neglected. 

I always knew he liked me and had asked me out but I never took the invitation seriously. Out of mere curiosity I teasingly ask why he never took me on an actual date secretly scared of his response. No one wants to appear unattractive not even to the "oh hell no type of man". I say what others murmur. So he takes a deep breath, smiles and looks down. Wait was I that bad!? I think and just like that paranoia takes over and I find myself assuring him that I will not be offended. As a matter of fact we will laugh it off. 

"You are too intimidating.It was not you, it was me. I wasn't ready ready for you then financially. But now I am ." It broke my heart hearing this man confess over the last thing on my mind. I don't disagree as a man if you can't provide it will be an issue but that is not a reason enough to not go for it. Anyway let me nurse my heart while trying my best bit to intimidate more men. 

My indeed  #RealityCheck

My 12pm

Some of us learn through mistakes while the rest of us are lucky enough to leave through someone else's mistakes. But what saddens me is when you think you are better than the one before you while you are headed for the same hole. 

It takes someone humble to not allow "attention" get the best of them. I am allowed to make afew mistakes but none from foolishness. To me anyone who entertains now tell rather shows me who they truly are. I don't mind you celebrating in the moment but living in the moment is just going too far. 

This is where I take a step back and watch you ruin yourself. Rather I grab a seat and predict your downfall step by step in my mind. You bet am betting on you secretly. The minute you start acting important, you are immediately replaced. 

Then it hits you. You thought you were relevant but #RealityCheck proves that you were nothing short of a phase. Life has a way of putting people in their places.