September

My unpredictable month. I have tried researching what usually happens during this time of the month with no success. I seem to be suffering from selected amnesia. 

I have a million and one things on my agenda or so it feels like it and I feel as though I might be short changed this month. I am not going to talk myself out of good things just because I feel as though wait a minute... Let me work on what I know about this month so far. 

I have a to do list. These bills will not pay themselves *laughs* and am not the kind to ask for an extra hand although right about now a sponsor is not a bad idea. Hey am blaming I on the uncertainty. This month is full of tests and treats and the worst part is both of them appear to be the same. 

To those of you who start a new year this month, happy birthday darlings and may your joy spread through this dark tunnel . Men I hate surprises 

And that is my new month #RealityCheck 

The Prodigal Son Part II

I urge you my dear reader to never be afraid nor ashamed of sharing your experience. It is never to "out" another person or air your own dirty laundry but someone of us are meant to go through such processes to be a voice. I take my blogging as a positive platform to encourage those who are secretly considering taking their own lives, those who think they are alone in this of which it's not the case and those who are not willing to come to terms with reality. For those of you bored and are looking for something to keep them entertained I deeply apologize for misleading you. Not everything is for everyone and happily in my case this is not your thing either. Sorry!

So now that we got that cleared let's go back to " the lost son". I have already identified my lost case seeing rather testifying that I too was a lost well closed case or so I thought. Nothing just happens. Everything happens for a reason both good and bad. I know much about the bad because at times I feel as though I have been living under a dark grey cloud. It is ever raining and not just raining but heavily. I could sure use some sunshine but it is through the drought that I have come to appreciate it all. 

Ladies, I hear you only appreciate a good man when you have dated a bad man. There is no bad man just that he wasn't ready for your ridiculous awesomeness. In my little blog such words exist. 

It is not up to you to judge the prodigal son especially when you can relate. When you were down and alone what is the one thing you craved for the most? Love, hope and someone to assure you that it gets better. So why are you acting as if you are better than her/him? 

Luke 15:17 " When he came to his senses that is the part I love the most about this story. He/she is not a gone case. Don't turn your back when they need you the most. Borrow afew pointers from Blind Devotion. Hang in there. It gets better.  My secret is simple. I am praying for him reminding God why he deserves a second chance. 

Then comes the selfless part. No am not asking you ladies to be like the bitter brother. You remember how he left and what he has been up to perhaps with other women. But I urge you if your intentions are good and you have a pure heart be like the father and celebrate that he was dead and now he is alive ; he was lost  and now he is found." 

And that is my #RealityCheck 

6:22pm

Oh young love. Watching these  high school kids go at it leaves me thinking of myself back in the day. Was I rebellious why Ofcourse. But being in a realtionship was the last thing on my mind. I was suffering from my own insecurities to allow someone else point them out. 

An old fashioned in afew ways. All I wanted was a kiss. I never drunk even though believe it or not I used to hide the liquor for the guys in our class in my locker. No I never smoked weed or did drugs. I guess that is why hanging out with guys made it easier for both parties. 

I guess at this day and age it's hard to find boys and girls being just friends. Is that why ladies and gentlemen can't be friends without the benefits? Sad. I know what you are thinking. I already have enough friends like why would I just invite a lady out to have a conversation over a cup of coffee? The coffee won't pay for itself now will it? I hear you although in my opinion yes just my opinion I think you have a Stone Age mentality. 

There is more to life than taking each other's clothes off. Or does it just exist in my head? 

And that is my #RealityCheck 

The prodigal son

Isolation is the last step before destruction. I am about to foretell what is about to happen. Your downfall will come as a surprise to many but not me. I know where your heart is but you have always had the wrong attitude. I admire your courage and efforts but only a mothers love can save you this time. If she can pray for your soul, God will have mercy on you. 

Humble yourself young man and God will take you places no eyes have seen it ears have heard. If only you would pay attention to God and not the gifts you have been entrusted in. You have celebrated the blessings more than the one who honored you. 

You will be fine in the end for you will learn the hard way. This is not just a blog this Sunday afternoon. This is my heartfelt story for what is already happening behind the scenes. Seek God and he will guide you on your way back home. 

The prodigal son. That is who I call you. I hope you read this sooner than later. No one can get to you because you think you know and have it all. All that is about to change. 

And that is my #RealityCheck 

4:38

I always tell my BFF that when a lady you secretly root for without her knowledge as far men go starts acting hostile towards you it means she sees something in you that you don't see. Pleas let me explain. Ladies kindly take a seat before hitting the club becaus this could be the blog that changed everything you thought you knew about yourself. 

She has no idea that you are her biggest fan saying nothing less of how amazing she is and that any of your male friends should take a chanc on. But then out if no where she develops an attitude and you think to yourself perhaps she has a bad day, we all have one of those but when it finally dawns on you that she has become somehow hostile towards you please don't return the favor. 

She is not the problem you are. See ladies when you are nice and good to other ladies it doesn't make you less attractive but rather it genuinely shows of how beautiful your heart and pure your soul is. So instead of others seeing the beauty in her, they start to see the beauty in you. That is my secret day to day hand and body lotion please do not misuse this information. 

Where was I oh I tend to be lost in my thoughts. So what you are doing is transferring your positive energy towards them but in real sense you are indirectly releasing any negative thought about them by paying them a complement which leaves you feeling at ease. 

I will let you in on anothe secret. She can't stand you because she sees and knows that you are a threat. You have something that she wants but can't have. It's not anything tangible to be honest but she fails to understand what either her man or a man she is interested in sees in you. For all your naive self knows us you and him are just friends. It's that chemistry and effortless smile you bring out in that man that she craves the most. 

Ladies, the more you fight it the uglier you appear to that man. I have already said enough. 

And that is my #RealityCheck 

9am

I want to give up. I want to to give up so bad that when I hear the mention of your name I have to figure out if you are my fan or not. I feel like you are everyone's superhero but never show up when it comes to me. Friday is the new Monday whereby I feel the entire week has drained everything good from me. 

I am strong enough on my own but at times I wish you could atleast pretend to offer to help knowing very well that I would turn the offer down but it's the thought that counts. 

I am not giving up even though I wish you would get out of the way .... Like pave way for the rest of us but something deep down *hope* tells me to stop trying to fool myself and wait . I might look the other cheek but am afraid you might like that side of me as well. 

5.59pm

That is how you know you are either over someone or inlove with them. When you get the chance to get even but you choose not to. You honestly don't expect an applause from the other party but when you are all alone and you look back at the opportunity and somehow find the strength to stay humble that speaks volumes. You have not only grown as a human being but you are ready for what life unveils next. 

It's never much but isn't that what life is all about the little things. Words like am sorry, until next time, I miss you, am proud of you , I am thinking about you, I care and I love you. Those are small words to some but to the rest of us if wrongly used can leave deep wounds. 

So the next time you are presented with a get even situation just take a moment and think if there is a difference between you and the party you involved. That will determine if you are still stuck in the season or use it as a reason to figure out what next for yourself. 

Will it pay off, try it and tell me how it goes. 

And that is my #RealityCheck