Not Just Yet

When you take time off your 'normal' routine, you get clarity. I am a strong believer in if you are going to go for it then don't hold back. Don't you dare have second thoughts! I don't know about other ladies or women and I don't speak on anyone's behalf other than I, Me and Myself but I easily loose interest and am blaming it on having both an imaginative and creative mind. Before you utter a word my mind is already made up. Having multiple personalities I always give people what to expect instead of who I am.

PLEASE,  DON'T DISMISS ME,  NOT JUST YET

We all know by now that God doesn't run things our way so your timing is not his timing meaning what you consider a "this is it moment" to God is a Not Just Yet. By eighteen it's common sense that you should clear highschool. Next you know which University and what you should major in. You should be twenty five by now working and dating a man with similar accomplishments. By twenty six that man should propose and before the year ends have a grand wedding one that gets the tabloids talking, villagers salivating and friends/enemies eating their hearts out. Right!? You must be thirty and you are working on your masters or PHD and you run your own company, happily married with the it children living the dream ..... until you wake up

PLEASE,  DON'T DISMISS ME, NOT JUST YET

You have been in and out of jobs not sure if by the end of this year you will have kept your first real one considering rumour has it you are about to be fired and you barely survive on commissions. Let's not even talk about your age. Let's just say if we were to look up the meaning of unfair your name would come up. As of dating its not like no one wants you but rather no one has ever asked. You are not a bad person if anything you are the selfless kind. You have just worked behind the scenes.

PLEASE,  DON'T DISMISS ME, NOT JUST YET

The truth is some of you have already made it in life. That doesn't give you the right to look down on others. Most of you are still struggling with identity crisis and want the status so bad that you are willing to compromise you morals to get ahead. Afew of you are old fashioned and aren't struggling though you are working towards your goals while enjoying what life has to offer *this life has people who succeeded at an early age, those accomplishing now and those yet to achieve later on at forty or fifty*

PLEASE, DON'T DISMISS ME, NOT JUST YET

I am scared for the people who became successful at a young age because most of them have already abused that blessing but at the same time my heart breaks for today's millionaires simply because majority of them are the ones taking advantage of teenagers with daddy issues, broken homes and poverty to try and compensate lifestyles and lust.

PLEASE,  DON'T DISMISS ME,  NOT JUST YET

Have you ever been told that you are good BUT SOMEONE ELSE WOULD BE LUCKY TO HAVE YOU? You are too good to be true then the next minute they ask where are all the good men/women at? First of all, who broke your heart and why are you taking it out on the wrong person?
Bitterness is a disease so stop spreading it and go heal. We all suffer from foolishness sometimes and we take it out on the wrong people but never intentionally but unless your shenanigans has nothing to do with me, keep me out of it.

PLEASE,  DON'T DISMISS ME, NOT JUST YET

Be careful how you treat people because life has different seasons. When you are at the peak of your career put God first and stay humble. Seek wisdom not recognition. 

PLEASE, DON'T DISMISS ME, NOT JUST YET

This is not a pharmacy and these are not instructions on how to apply or live by no this is my #RealityCheck where am simply asking you to PLEASE, DON'T DISMISS ME, NOT JUST YET.

Tea, Coffee or Reality

When everyone else sees it but you don't understand why.  Good morning checkmates. The #RealityCheck is secretly you know what everyone else is talking about but you just don't want to admit it. I read that people who have been single for too long are the hardest to love. Now don't get me wrong I agree with it one hundred percent but people who have been hurt and broken are the hardest to love.

Speaking from experience being single for too long makes you know what you want. I will even go a step further and say people who have kissed dating goodbye are the same people who always keep it real. We don't know how to sugar coat bullshit if am being honest. We are so comfortable in our skins that we expect the rest of the world to keep up. We don't have maybe inbetween yes and no. Time is what we have and time is what we lack. See my kind has already understood but let me explain. If we like you we will give you our undivided attention and even invest but if we have no intention of being associated with you, we will not lead you on.

The reality is you don't even have to try because it comes naturally. Common sense is not so common especially to people living in denial. When you don't understand what others see in someone you like or yourself relax and don't over think things. All you need to know is there is something special there. So don't be quick to dismiss it or yourself. Meanwhile life has to go on.

Tease Testimony day

Today I woke up knowing what I wanted. I wrote myself a note and I prayed about it. Other days am always about others like Lord let me make a difference in someone's life. Today it was all about me. Atleast that is what I thought.

I have come to realise that everytime am having a low moment, God uses that to challenge me further. When am so sure that I will get my breakthrough I end up empty handed and that is when God shows up and expects more from me. Am already used to it by now so if you have happen to be reading this and feel like God has got you breaking walls for others then you are not alone. You are my kind of people.

Long story short I teased myself to believing that love would softly caress my cheeks only for my mouth to utter words of encouragement, comfort and blessings to this unknowing soul. Have you ever met someone who needed the blessing more than you. Like today was a do or die moment of truth for them and that God would use your emptiness to bring such joy and life into their lives?

I left the house expectant and now am going back full. Love indeed whispered to my soul and I pray I made God proud. And that is my #RealityCheck

The Investors Anthem

Ladies and gentlemen welcome to my late night blog show aka my #RealityCheck.  Tonight it's all about the Investor Anthem. Since everyone and by everyone I mean majority of the men are convinced we ladies want to get with older men who are living out their bucket list. Listen, no broke man has a bucket list rather they live out on dreams so by now you know the so called "sponsors" have billions if not millions in their bank accounts. I think some of the ladies have taken these commercials way too far by living out the "If I don't who will?"

Personally am all about the Investors. I don't mind you taking my dreams and turning them into a reality. Investors are realistic and will withdraw at the thought of making losses. From an investors point of view it has to be a win win situation so this kind of man will do anything to bring your walls down and get you attached emotionally. Gentlemen you are welcome. I just gave you the gate pass to get her to commit by tapping into her emotions.

Sponsors please take notes. As soon as you take her home she is already playing out the conversation that is about to go down with her investor. He is what she wants but sadly he is not at the peak of his career. Investors are like the modern day Boris Kodjoe. Sorry gentlemen that's English for every lady wants him. It's the games we play this kind of investor that matters. No matter how fine or good a lady is, the investor has the final say. That is what intrigues me about investors. They always see it coming and by it I mean the bullshit/act/cheap drama. Investors always do their research and take their time. I am an investor or is it investee so I know what am talking about.

You are who you attract and am not talking about victims of molestation I mean it in relationship/maturity terms. How often do you date? How long have they lasted? What's your role in the relationship? Where do you go out on dates and how many of your friends approve of this relationship? Are you better, bitter, wild or calm when with him/her and what's your real mood when they are not around? Like I said you are either being invested on or out right living it loud in the sponsorship cruise.

10th August Wednesday thoughts

Until I get my own radio late night relationship show this blog will do for now. Ever since I was a little girl ladies believe it or not I never wanted to get married. Not really. I don't have part of my life figured out. I don't know where or what I will have it done rather all I have ever been curious about is who will have my heart. All I asked God was that whoever he is, please let him not be short because I am not wearing slippers on my wedding day just to get that I now pronounce you husband and wife part. I am a tomboy but I love my high heels not gaga although funny story my bestfriend always laughs at the fact that I owned some gaga like heels. What ,it was back in the day and everyone was doing it and by everyone I mean me. Fine I had identity crisis * laughing quietly to myself like damn girl*

Sometimes it takes new love to get over a toxic relationships. Other times it takes courage with a sparkle of answered prayers through that one good friend to get you out of what could have been. This is not what I signed up for isn't that what most of you say? Personally this is what God had designed for me. It took his grace, loving kindness and mercy to get me through different phases and difficult seasons. I am not tough , I just had to be tough to make it out alive.   I knew this day would come where I felt my presence mattered and that I belonged.

Somewhere deep down I know who was meant to be reads my blogs not religiously but finds me amusing and amazingly hilarious. His friends don't get it or me but he does and am okay with that. When they meet me they will understand why he would fall for someone he hasen't spent ages with. When it's right, it unfolds all on its own. So to all the bestfriends out there I being one of them trying to hook people up because all our intentions are good, just you and even I being there is enough. We want the world for that one person who has been there and just like God sent you them, he is generous enough to hand make a masterpiece spouse for them.

Why does it take so long? It's easy now I can answer that because some of us don't need to lean on a man/woman to be complete. We need to accomplish on our own first then we can share what we have already earned and gained with them and the rest of the world. If you want it bad enough you must be willing to go the extra mile ...wrong relationships and afew lonely nights. Take a hot long bath, a glass of wine or mug of coffee/tea whatever works for you and carry on. The night is still young and that is my #RealityCheck.

Enjoy checkmates!

#AmLonelyNotAlone

You don't have to be alone to be lonely. You could be in the presence of who you think you always wanted and still feel like crap. Have you ever been with someone who made you question why you are with them in the first place? That what do I see in you or what are we doing thinking out loud moment? It's like I always tell my bestfriend you just don't wake up one day then go insane.

Not tonight Bruno Mars. ..its not me and my liquor store blues.....and am not feeling you either John  Legend..... best you've ever had .... Am feeling Mariah Carey.... and then a hero comes along because as I blog this I know the lonely girl in me knows I have enough strength to carry the both of us. Don't wait for people to encourage you when they have all sorts of baggages  weighing them down so what you do is figure out a way to pull yourself up and maybe someone somewhere instead of taking a selfie #broken #beatdown #laylow *giggles* will learn that it's normal to feel defeated but it's not wise to advertise your weakness because you never know who is watching or rather out to get you. Your pain or loneliness is not your weakness but the fact that you haven't mastered what to share with society and keep private earns you the title ALONE even though deep down you are just lonely . And that is my #RealityCheck

The Last Monday Of July 2016

I had my life all figured out. After completing my high school education I would study British Law , graduate with honors leave this country , start life in a foreign country , work on my identity there as one of the best criminal lawyer and fall helplessly inlove with my dream man when working on one of the cases as the presiding judge. Wait did I mention I would be driving my custom-made dream car. That was the dream. But that is all it was a dream.

Reality can be brutal. Living life in my early twenties I always knew that my day would come. Sadly each year brought with it different demons. The hallelujah turned into God is good and from there the amen slowly faded into whispers and finally I became Sarah. My laugher was bigger than my frustrations. When I heard people say God is good I smiled on the outside though on the inside I knew that he was only good to them not me.

We have all had this moment in life where at a certain point you stop living and start surviving. You just want to live today and not think about tomorrow leave alone the future. When you are around your peers all you could think about was who is better than who. But the beauty that comes with maturity and being secure enough in your own skin, you realize it's not a competition but my journey. Sure I had a dream and it didn't look up but who said I couldn't or can't dream again? It's not easy I understand having laid down on the ground for a while but if we all give up then what? We all wait to die? Come on!

For those of you who have never had the chance to know what it's like to have credentials and people turn you down especially this new young generation I don't envy you. I am happy for you but I don't admire you. Initially your charm will run out and someone younger and more beautiful or handsome will replace you so good luck with that.  You may be in your early or late  twenties and still everything in your life looks dead. Don't lose hope. Take heart. Look at it this way darling, you were not ready for that success. Think about it, with those kinds of friends you used to hang out with, do you think you would still be employed? Besides I heard thirty is the new twenty. 

Big deal you are still single and headed forty. Who said by that age you should be someone's mother or father? Screw society. Now that you are fifty and everyone is expecting you to have your shit together so what? Be the next Oprah. What's your point? Am glad you asked. My point is we all have the same dreams but different timings and blessings. Just because your old man or lady figured life out ealier on in life doesn't mean you don't deserve the family name. You are not the black sheep of the family. Or maybe you are and that is what makes you stand out. You don't have to go down the same path everyone else goes through to make it to the other side of life. You would be a fool to think am encouraging you to cheat your way there but own it. Own your flaws and strengths , stop making excuses and press on. We still have five months to go so make the most of this year. And that is my #RealityCheck