The beginning and last of December 2018

New month, new adventures,  new romance,  new kind of blessings, new positivity and new mysteries 😇 ....... my response this month is hallelujah 🤗 . The beginning of a new month yet the end of a well God planned year. I didn't blog much because I was in the middle of a very important lesson. I didn't post much because I had to take in that very moment. I didn't travel much because I had plenty of work and skills to acquire where I was. I didn't put myself first because others needed me more. So if I come off a little selfish at the very end is because I did all what I had been assigned and even though there is no trophy or certificate to show just how much I put in extra effort 2018, baibee my smile says it all. I didn't require much because there was so much more I had to discover deep within myself. My biggest lesson this year happens to be this

YOU DON'T NEED ICING TO ENJOY CAKE. WHAT MAKES THE CAKE ARE THE INGREDIENTS.

So for those of you who are probably expecting more from me at the end of this year, darling those are your expectations not mine. No man wants me like that mama and daddy you gotta postpone that (mjengo) because that dowry issa no 😂😂. Just like icing everything else is just a decoration rather a plus/bonus to add on but not necessarily who I am.

And just like that I mean, I have just blogged 😆😎.

A toast to the beginning and last of 2018 *here here*🍾🍾🍾🍾🍾

Happy holidays from my heart to my head checkmates.

I can but I won't #NOvember

I am a product whore...... I will purchase the most expensive product because  (common sense ) Expensive is cheap to maintain then if I don't get the desired results in two days or one week, am out. I have committment issues until I get the one that has it all.

I know am not the only one. From my face to the rest of my body I have experimented with different products more than five times in a month. So, does that mean I have a hard time staying faithful? Honestly speaking yes and no.

The one that has it all as far as men go he has to have most of the qualities. If a man can't engage me in a conversation I then I don't know what this creature has to offer me. It better not be the same old boring routine like how are you, how was your day? I don't need a man who thinks rather one who knows what he wants. The most I can give a man is my phone number the rest I just let him figure it out. You are the man after all right, then show me!

I am an Aquarius for those of you wondering so everything you have read regarding my kind could be true or false. All I can tell you is the more you get to know me in person, the more attached and protective of me you will become. I am just stating facts. The hardest part is not me being picky but rather you keeping me interested. I sound like a job now don't I *laughing sheepishly*

Ladies and gentlemen don't just go with the flow, have and state your standards because I can but I won't.  And that is my #RealityCheck. 

Lovely day checkmates

#BringingBackTheGoodOldLove

I am uptight but this October is giving me butterflies. For the last couple of months I have been working on my energy. I am glad it's paying off. I will never tire of crowing myself as the ultimate Aquarius lady because am a puzzle even to myself. I have multiple conversations in my head every five minutes so believe me when I say oh I know . Everything you are about to say I pretty much covered in high school so you have years to catch up with me.

Recently, I bumped into my childhood crush. One of them anyway like I just didn't want to rub it to his face there were others *laughing sheepishly*. I watched girls fight over him as I was a serious tomboy so I was one of the boys if not invisible. We were a circle of three Myself, him and my other crush. In my head they would fight for me . He is as appealing as he will ever be but that's just it. He took me by surprise when he asked for my number just how I like it.  Was I about to upgrade my childhood crush from a dude to a man or was I thirstloading? I wish he was not charming but he is *damn it* my ego is doing the happy dance.

Sometimes we are so busy working towards being successful and there is nothing wrong with that but we forget the little things that makes us unique #BringingBackTheGoodOldLove . When was the last time you giggled?

I am mature now, am ready for that love. How many people can honestly and openly admit to this? Are we so broken that we have learnt to push everyone away? So desperate that we are afraid to ask for what we truly want? Or just wasting precious time dismissing ourselves by blaming it on I have nothing to offer?

This October there are people who need to slow down and others who need to keep up with their dreams by following their hearts. We all need to give ourselves permission to not only give but be willing to receive the kindness and love back. Ofcourse you are independent no one is questioning your masculinity or femininity but two heads are better than one. Having written this and expectant of the butterflies that come with positive energy for now let this not only be my #RealityCheck but yours as well.

From my soul to yours, pleasant surprises checkmates.

Tonight is that night

There is something so magical about the sky tonight.  It's one of  those nights I have always known existed but I can't prove it.  When I look up the only song in mind is "Grab somebody sexy tell them hey, give me everything tonight." It's one of those nights where you can't fake it.

I am trying to explain but I swear am not making sense but if you are out there reading this or living it out come tomorrow morning you will have known. This is not for the cheap men at heart or those who think all you can ever offer a woman is money. Wrong blog sirs kindly stop reading and walk away.

This is the night. It's a first date night. Feels like it. Butterflies, excitement and hopeful expectations. It's a I like you night. I have always liked you. I am falling for you without even knowing or caring if anyone approves or not. It's a I want you to see yourself in my eyes kind of night.

Tonight doesn't require much but undeniable attraction and affection. It's a you give me a heaven on earth spirit in the atmosphere kind of night. It's an I love my work but being with you right here and now taking in this very moment is priceless. It's a you are my life kind of night.

It's a quiet night . It's a thankful night. Indeed it's a God night because only He would breathe to life such an excellency. I am humbled to have witnessed tonight because it just gave me a #RealityCheck.

Lovely night checkmates.

Different People

When someone tells you that they are different, please believe them. You can be in a room full of people and still feel alone. You can be raised in a loving home and still grow up feeling unloved. Challenges of being different makes others question how you view life because they will never see the bigger picture.

Most normal people are afraid of failure. Different people embrace failure and use it as motivation to better themselves. When you change your questions from who to what you will understand that the only person you need to convince is yourself. It is not about life rejecting or hurting me but rather just how bad do I need it in my life in order for me to commit.

Love brings out another side in every one of us. Good or bad I really don't know but this much am sure. I don't know anyone else the way I know myself. It is not what you won't do , it is what I won't put up with. People who are different don't take the term/word us in relationships seriously. By us it usually means  I, Me and Myself. I am not worried about you, am worried about me.

Different people will only stop the day there is no longer magic and they will end up viewing you just like everyone else or even worse ie the enemy. Don't ever stop being special in the eyes of a different person because then they will resent you and everything else you represent. 

Different people will never hide who they truly are to stroke your ego. They are open minded and very opinionated. If they have nothing polite to say they will simply smile or walk away avoiding eye contact. That is a dangerous sign because what it means is that they have you all figured out.  Different people lack in areas they can't explain because their minds know beyond what their eyes see. Different people seek things that are beyond normal because that is their #RealityCheck.

The Man After My heart

He had me at a mighty man of wealth. That left a smile on my face while questioning how wealthy is wealth?  And she went, and came, and gleaned in the field after the reapers and her hap was to light on a part of the field belonging unto Boaz, who was of the kindred of Elimelech.

And, behold, Boaz came from Bethlehem, and said unto the reapers, The Lord be with you. And they answered him, The Lord bless thee.

 All I know and can take from this is that here is a determined woman who did everything she could not for herself but for her mother in law and still it wasn't enough because her hap was to light on a part belonging to him  *God has a sense of humor* and in the midst of her hard work and struggle behold he came. Wait, say that again .....he came. He not only came but the way he addressed his reapers humbles my heart. The respect between Boaz and the reapers amazes me like it was that one of a kind moment so much so that the conversations they had, had to be written in the bible. That in itself tells me what kind of a man and leader Boaz was. A man after my heart. 


Then said Boaz unto his servant that was set over the reapers, Whose damsel is this? Its as if something stronger than his spirit drove him there. He was focused and even safe to say he knew what he wanted because immediately he took notice of her in such an overwhelming way he just had to know her. Then said Boaz unto Ruth, Hearest thou not, my daughter? Go not to glean in another field, neither go from hence, but abide here fast by my maidens . Boaz was very protective of her and you can tell secretly he wanted her all to himself. To me this is the most romantic story in the entire bible. 

The Lord recompense thy work, and a full reward be given thee of the Lord God of Israel, under whose wings thou art come to trust. Are there still men who do this? Bless the women in their lives? 

My definition of wealth thanks to Boaz is not only knowing God but fearing and having a relationship with him. That is what makes this man stand out to me and the most desirable.  I believe deep down Boaz had been praying for a Ruth because when he saw her he knew exactly what to say and do. 

Just like this mysterious love story we all go through life battling things that seem like they are weighing us down just like Ruth. The truth is whatever you have been praying and working hard for in a weird way will cause your answer to appear like a Boaz. And, behold it will come .  Like Ruth I pray you wont miss your opportunity of redemption and blessings because it won't come in an obvious way that's why you need to trust your heart and listen to that still voice because unlike your eyes it sees and already knows. 

The book of Ruth happens to be my #RealityCheck  

July Tease

Baibee am a lover not a fighter but the only time we will ever fight will be in between the sheets. When you turn me I will toss me. You strike me like the kind of man who speaks a foreign language when angry yet the squeeze me hard when excited. I have never been here before . I am typing hoping that this finally registers to your mind that am your type.

I am a product of love so be sure I cannot make this passion up. I know my body acts like it is not interested but the conversation my eyes have with your heart is enough to speak world peace and bring restoration to mankind. See our kind of love is the envy of stars . We don't need the moon all we need is a room ...... On second thought we would light it up with flames of forbidden chemistry and spiritual oneness not to mention sexual healing......

People ask me why am single. The truth is I have been waiting for someone to awaken the silent voices and give meaning to inspiration. I am not vulnerable I am sure. I am not comfortable I am eagerly anticipating the day our souls will have a conversation again. Who knows maybe this time we will dance as our hearts provide the music and our deep breaths will guide our hands. 

Everyone wants the success story of how you got that big break but am different. Refreshingly different *smile* . I want the story of how the process left you feeling vulnerable  so much so that you were willing to give up but you didn't. Why? What made you hold on? What motivated you to fight alittle more? Who?

Whatever makes you happy do it. I am not out here chasing you, am only submitting to my heart. Anyone can handle your good side but I want to fall inlove with your dark side. The one you keep telling yourself that it is your best kept secret. If I can understand you at your worst then baibee I can applaud you at your best but until then I need your soul to trust my heart.

Tonight darling, tonight am all about you because you are not only my enchanting truth but my #RealityCheck.