2016 summary

As we bid 2016 goodbye let me start off by thanking God for being God over this great nation and an amazing father to me. He has watched me make mistakes and so lovingly corrected me. He has listened to my cries, prayers and shenanigans. He has been patient and so gently guided my paths. His will was done. For every heartbreak, pain and loss dear God I thank you. For each new day,  gain and win Father I humbly thank you.

I would like to thank my bestfriend for keeping a #RealityCheck on me regardless of whether I needed to hear it or not. Girl, you rock as always. I would like to thank my family for being crazy because without you I would not have a voice or an opinion. I would like to thank the people I met along the way and have become good friends and thank those strong enough to leave mylife with lessons to take with me as I journey through.

2016 was my year as I have testified and will live to testify. Damn it feels so good to have a breakthrough when you have been broken down for a while. I got answers to my questions. My biggest accomplishment was not getting a paycheck although I worked hard for it but it was God restoring me. When God came through for me when I needed him before, during,  then and even now, He answered.

I apologise if I didn't live up to societies expectations but it wasn't about my status or what I brought to the table rather it was about what God was bringing to my table. He prepared a table before me in the presence of my enemies. When you experience God's presence baby you stop complaining and you start explaining to those going through the same or worse situations that God has got this. He has your back.

I have learnt that when you let God fight your battles, darling He leaves you speechlessly inlove.
When your life is silent, God is talking on your behalf. When you sit, God stands up to your mountains and commands them to move. When you humble yourself , He honors you. When you are loyal to your faith in God, He does marvellous wonders.

My wait has paid off in ways the naked human eyes cannot see. I have been rewarded with peace , joy and happiness that makes me understand that I have never been alone. God never left my side, I was just in a hurry to get the promises He made me.

True victory is when you meet with those who hurt you and still show them love and walk away smiling. It shows it stopped being about them and about who you became when they left.

I Can Only Hope

I would text and tell you that I miss you but then I would only end up disappointed if you didn't text back. By now you must be used to my cheap act and secretly as annoying as it is I pray it's a turn on ... I can only hope. 

Don't think that I don't pay attention. I act busy truth be told but we both know am one hard working lady but sometimes I just use work as an excuse to not be disappointed. Am married to my work, I don't have time to date , am just figuring things out, am at the peak of my career , next month, next year , I will make time I promise. Those are some of the excuses I have used and still use as well as so many independent ladies out there. 

When you read this, you will assume it's you or someone else. Maybe, maybe not. You do try sometimes and others times if am being honest you come off as blind as a bat. I know of ladies who can share this blog because somehow its everything they always wanted to air but wondered how. We all work so hard to provide and have just enough to give back but Christmas or rather the festive season has a way of making us go and admit to things we don't often talk about. 

We are all scared of being vulnerable enough to say rather ask for what we really want. No one wants rejection so no one is willing to take a leap of faith into the unknown. This Christmas I wish all my readers the courage to walk away from what if and start walking towards what is. May God grant you enough strength to receive as much as you give. It's not selfish to expect or love when others are hurting. For those of you putting your lives on hold, life is about experiencing and making mistakes and learning from them. 

To everyone who has made an effort to change in a positive way, someone sees it even though they might not walk right up to you and applaud you. To those who have closed their hearts from pain and loving again, you can't unteach the heart what it already knows. To those terrified of change, a day like this last year you said the same thing but if we check your records we'll let's not even go there. 

Life is short because we assume there is always going to be tomorrow or another chance to live , makes things right or progress. Let's start shedding happy tears celebrating each other's success. Above all let's get our priorities straight by putting God first in our lives and allowing his will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us. Lead us not into temptations but deliver us from evil. 

Dear Heart, "Are you happy and if not who makes you happy?" And that is my #RealityCheck 

Seasons greetings checkmates!