My 2018 Vows

I vow to put God first.
I vow to put myself second to none.
I vow to love more.
I vow to try harder.
I vow to uphold my values and dignity.
I vow to keep my promises.
I vow to trust more.
I vow to be less judgmental.
I vow to smile more.
I vow to laugh louder.
I vow that everything I will do will be with passion and pure intentions.
I vow to be vulnerable.
I vow to make an effort.
I vow to accept the outcome.
I vow to challenge myself and those around me.
I vow to be kind.
I vow to be more accommodating.
I vow to be open minded.
I vow to be respectable.
I vow to dream bigger.
I vow to never stop believing.
I vow to question less and act more.
I vow to be better.
I vow to use my experiences to better others and win over the bitter hearts.
I vow to check up on others more.
I vow to appreciate God, myself and everyone am entrusted with.
I vow to be patient.
I vow to let God be in charge.
I vow to allow His will and not mine be done.
I vow to make time to celebrate life.
I vow to forgive.
I vow to grow.
I vow to seek and settle for extraordinary.
I vow to be honest.
I vow to never be anyone other than myself.
I vow to take each day as it unfolds.
I vow to live in the moment.
I vow to hug on people more.
I vow to express my feelings and be in touch with my emotions.
I vow to stay humble at heart.
I vow to have more faith and trust the process.
I vow to encourage and motivate.
I vow to blush.
I vow to accept help and ask for it.
I vow to expect lady like treatment.
I vow to give and receive.
I vow to guide and be guided.

#RealityCheck and my #EnchantingTruth is
I vow to simply be mself .... the enchanting mind and soul ❤

.........desperately Lost

2017 was everything I never expected yet everything I needed to be here right in this very moment. Thankful for the disappointments which led to better appointments. I made it through it all because my father in heaven ensured his  grace, love and mercies were sufficient for me.

You were everything I was praying, hoping and believing for so much so that I was scared to admit it out loud.My darling eyes we have witnessed bullshit, self sabotage & that was God moments. My honest mouth strangely you kept it together. My love, my pure heart you kept the faith.

I achieved everything I put my mind to with prayers, patience and good friends. The year was so beautiful that I never wanted it to end. At the very end that is when it hit me and I realised the enchanting truth. I give my all because that is what I expect in return though I never I ask for it because I assume it is obvious. When good things are not reciprocated I pull away. Small details and things excite me and like I found out not everyone else. Everything is not for everyone. I value family and friendship so I assumed everyone else did.

If you don't share the same values that doesn't make either of us less or better than the other but  still, stand your ground. 2017 was an eye opener for me. I finally watched vlogs and followed people who are quite influential on the gram (Instagram) and it's always good to see what else is out there. I even went audio live and I am glad that curiosity is behind me. I was shocked to learn that majority of people on social media are materialistic in a greedy and negative way. People don't care about you rather what you are all about. Where you wine and dine, designer clothes, bags, shoes , perfumes, the business and first class life on a plane life, it vacations , ideal body and hair , phone experiences. Still think am lying, post a picture of yourself and a loved one and two hours later that of you clubbing or on vacation and see which one gets more likes and comments. Now post an inspirational quote and that of your man/woman crush. Need I say more?  

I put to test something someone told me and it turns out she was right. If you were not who you are today say a broke unappealing version of you, would the same people still like you rather want to be associated with you? Exposing you as desperately lost the right ones would right? Those are who I am all about this year. I am taking down anything and everything which would make me attractive on social media and replacing it with what makes me enchantingly myself. Anyone not willing to make an effort to understand why I say and do half the bull I pull will be cut off immediately unapologetically. It's life or in most cases the #RealityCheck but this year it's my #EnchantingTruth