Going Back

Being successful has its own meanings to different individuals.Out of the many I have two ringing loudly in this silent room.One is not getting your enemy to trust you but like what you have to say. Convincing. That right there is a powerful word. If you can get people to buy into whatever you are putting out there, then you pose as not only a threat but a powerful individual. You are worse than a ticking bomb.When you read or rather see going back you might sit there and think, has this lady gone out of her freaking mind? Perhaps, well, we all can't be normal you know. On the real though, this is the best form of a reality check. It helps you stay sober if not sane. If all you ever do is win and never fall at some point, then you are cheating or delusional.You are living in a cloud called denial. I assure you not even the Queen of England has it all smooth so how about you a mere nobody no offense but then again we are being realistic, what makes you think you will have things handed to you? Let me go a little deeper and add not even Jesus himself the son of God was loved , accepted or lived the good life while on Earth. I am temped to go deep into the word but is for another day.

As I write this the major success screaming out is going back and being able to face that old situation. Courage. Being courageous enough to understand that just because you have matured doesn't necessarily mean the past has evolved. You have to be bold enough to accept that even though the past may not change, you can change and be part of the change. What am suggesting is not rocket science leave alone impossible but most people avoid the past because they are scared of the outcome. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change , the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference. This is what I have been living by this year. Like I always say, it is only too late when death is involved. Not that you have to live with the guilt for the rest of your life. Life is not robbing you of the life you think you can have neither God nor the devil. I am so sorry to break it to you but you have been holding yourself back. Everytime you post pone that to do list or whatever it is you keep regarding as ,"not now, someday, soon,later,it was not meant to be" I wish at times you would take the time to listen to yourself talk and not just talk but talk yourself out of you.

No one wants to hang around a partypooper, sadist and moment killer. Yes, you have slowly become those three things so as much as the right people try to be in your life you end up attracting the opposite. Ladies, if that man never gave you closure and that is why you keep regarding all men as dogs and players, a good man will never find his way to you because even 'badboys and drunks' want a good lady to go home to. Does that make sense like the reason why they only want you as the trophy and never the wife material. It is alleged that men will treat ladies according to how they carry themselves. If you have standards, he will maintain the standards but if you have no expectations then somehow along the line start demanding or act as if you expect from him, he will run. Gentlemen, we ladies know that there is always that one lady who screwed it up for the rest of us when you decided to lower your guard, swallow your pride and let her in, she pulled a fast one on you. We get it, but why must I personally pay for a crime I did not commit just because I remind you of her? How do I remind you of her in the first place?

Instead of playing this blame game time and again, we boys and girls need to take the time to just reflect on what we want.Instead of focusing on how to get or achieve it, you should work on what you will be bringing in. Take a moment and just talk. Lay it all out in the open assuming the people who read this are mature enough to listen, allow correction and communicate. Not yell,shout or curse but talk like a human being not only thinking about yourself because it is not always about you but learn to put yourself in that other persons shoes. It is so easy to judge when you merely have the facts. It is easy to dismiss when all you could have done is given that person a benefit of a doubt. How would you feel if you walked in a room and the very same thing you always do to others was done to you? 2015 come off your high and mighty I don't need anyone horse and try walking. Enjoy the view from down here.

The greatest joy is being at peace with yourself. Something no one else but yourself can offer. Realize this, seasons change but sadly some people will never change.Be open minded and you will be surprised at how you and being scared has been holding you back.

so, how about it, are you willing to go back?