get to the bottom of it all

I am not asking you to look for the person who hurt or did you wrong and expect closure or for them to recognize their mistakes. This beautiful Good Friday, am asking you to have a silent moment and remember who you were before you got where you are right now. Right before it all, who were you? You have wasted time thinking, overthinking and dwelling in the hurt place for far too long. It’s time to heal yourself. It’s time to forgive not just them but yourself. You have been blocking your own blessings by comparing directly and indirectly any form of happiness that shows up in your life. Thoughts of not feeling good enough. Assuming everyone else deserves it but you don’t. No one was born to suffer and no one deserves misery as a reward of life. 

So this PASAKA (Easter) I pray you finally get to the bottom of it all. For you to release years of disappointments, discouragements, failures and most importantly pain. Your pain has been overwhelming and overshadowing your blessings, breakthroughs and miracles. It’s time to smile, laugh and love again. The view is better at the top. Trust me, I know. You have stayed down for so long. It shouldn’t have taken months leave alone years to finally walk away or figure you are more than your circumstances. I guess it was necessary but it all ends right here and right now. No more surviving on breadcrumbs when you can own the entire bakery. No more regrets. What is meant for you can’t have it’s place with anyone else. Who you are meant to become can only be delayed but can’t be stopped. 

You might be tempted to complain and say it’s taking way too long to get there or see results. Well and good. It means you will require so much patience and grace to not only get there but be in the present moment as well. It’s not just accomplishing, it’s about becoming the person who you were destined to be. You will learn and appreciate the process, value and price it costed you. It won’t just be a job, it will

be your passion and purpose. You can’t expect love of you walk around with hate in your words and actions. You have to learn how to speak to yourself the same way you address others. Stop speaking down on everyone around you because that same energy comes back to you worse.

If you want kindness show it. Mercy, offer it. Generosity, give it. Love, give it. There is so much to live for and life has way more to offer than what you tell, give and show yourself. Don’t waste the sacrifice Jesus made this PASAKA (Easter). There are things you need to bury and lay to rest. Leave them in the grave. You can’t control everything but you can choose the direction of your life from now henceforth. I don’t care and it doesn’t matter what you did yesterday, it’s all gone and never coming back again. What say you today? 

What are you willing to embrace today?

I wasn’t even planning on blogging. This is how refreshing God got me. It’s time to forgive. You can’t take back those spoken words but from my experience, you can speak over life over those already spoken words. It’s not the end and it’s never too late or over.

Where there is a will, there is always a way. This is the beginning of a new chapter. Start over with a clean slate. If they happen to remind you of your past, ask them to try and keep up with the new you if they can. It’s not your job to explain, it’s your job to live your life.

Let go of the guilt. What was done was done. End of story. If they try and rub in the hurt tell them Njeri said it was necessary but that’s not you anymore. You owe it to yourself to atleast try living a different and better life. So I say #LetsFallInLove Let’s 💜 baibèé